i believe in fairies – everyday

fly away

ratna — Sat, 23 Oct 2010 15:00:20 +0000

04.26pm 1st june 2010

it's all part of this little tableaux i made.

well, tableaux is technically the wrong word, considering that none of the participants are alive.

but in my head, it works.

these days i'm not so much believing in fairies.

i'm much going into boiling turmoil in my head. all my own doing. i'm the only one that can make me think the way i am.

claustrophobic is only one of my muddled up internal turmoils. i can throw in basic frustration, a sense of demoralization and big time displacement. so basic simple depression.

the snapping out of it is not happening.

the everyday is turning into someday.

to top it all, i'm back to being pissed off with the human race.

oh yes and then there's this little cat that needs a home.

so all in all crap and complaints and the need for affection.

i should stop now.

gautam the writer

ratna — Wed, 06 Oct 2010 12:08:40 +0000

03.28am to 03.29am 6th oct 2010

the result of last night's revelries.

as many of us have learnt through personal experience, never pass out in a room full of awake people post much intoxication.

i am much suffering today. hoping all participants are keeping me company in my heavy headed puffy eyed misery.

the search is on or maybe as blind as a bat

ratna — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 09:28:21 +0000

04.26pm 1st june 2010

searching scribbles on my so called studio wall. i got the old style gandhi glasses from 'chor bazaar' in bombay, one early adventurous, let's go street shopping morning.

if i remember right, husband bought them for me coz he thought i'd actually get numbered lenses put on them and wear them. he's a retro junky. don't know if retro is the word to describe those glasses, but hopefully you get what i mean. he's into collecting old things, the past, history. well, we both are like that. we could have a garage sale every year and still have a full home.

in a month, i'll hopefully stop saying 'so called' and it'll just be simply, studio wall. yipeee! but, obviously, if the image is off scribbles on my so called studio wall, then, thats how i'll have to refer to it. future scribbles will be on my studio wall.

in my head…someday

ratna — Sat, 11 Sep 2010 14:22:57 +0000

03.06pm 30th jan 2010

16.5″x11″x6.75″ plywood, silk thread, masking tape, a mushroom i found near a garbage dump somewhere in bombay, quadruplet pine cones that i found in dalhousie, a shell that probably came from a beach in goa, a skeletal part of some animal that i found in galgibagh, star fish fossils from papua, a moth that passed away in one of the many boxes in my studio, and a maroon seed that i also found in goa. i need to still find out it's name. i did, but i forgot.

go to the next image. left arrow.

someday… in my head

ratna — Sat, 11 Sep 2010 12:29:02 +0000

12.33am 26th jan 2010

12.32am 26th jan 2010

detail of 'in my head...someday'

go to the previous image. right arrow.

i believe in faires

ratna — Sat, 04 Sep 2010 07:21:49 +0000

12.08pm 28th aug 2010

plaster of paris, resin, ink

i believe in fairies

ratna — Sat, 04 Sep 2010 06:55:13 +0000

12.07pm 28th aug 2010

16.5"x11"x6.75" plywood, a feather from a mynah gifted to me by my cat, blown glass, shell, coral skeleton, door peephole, plaster of paris, resin, ink